Thank you

It's all me now. Everyone has their own path to take to decide what's best for them. Looking at my friends and yes, I do envy them for having what I wasn't born to have, or being what I wasn't born to be but I'm trying hard all these times to fix and improve myself. Seeing them getting out to get their day lighten up couplely makes me wish to be like them too. I'm not whining on this because I'm trying hard too. Losing is not really big deal and merely nothing compared to winning (Suffer awhile maybe. I'll keep that in mind). Watching them having good stuff that I can't afford to be carried wherever they travel, but I have never truly complain deep inside my heart(maybe a lil :D) because I know one day I will have the chance to get them. To be honest, I am happy with all the things I have and appreciate them alot. No complaint at all. They maybe good at something but I am not falling behind. Catching up and being good at what they are not. This is something that I want to brag =)

Well, only I know the changes I had made, the changes I'm pursuing now, or the changes I will gain in future.

Soon after I realized that time is getting near for them to leave elsewhere to continue their studies. One by one having their mind made up and it's good to hear that. AND almost everyone is having what I don't have currently.

GirlFriend

Ini bukan jalan nihhh. It seems like I have to add really more oil than I usually does. Trying is not a crime.

You don't see me

A simple decision caused me to make a small mistake which leads to a regretful moment of weekend I spent. None of those nights were my good sleep, not even when I'm exhausted. But today something has just opened up my mind and I moved on. One mistake is not going to make me lose maybe more mistakes to come but these will be the key to my future and success.

That's about me. About her?

Day by day, it has gotten stronger and building a solid feeling towards you. This can't be undone or I shall fail my soul or barely lift up my little head. You may have not notice the way I look at you. You may have not know how I put you in every of my decisions. Sometimes I just wish to spill out everything but that would be a very reckless one. I wanna be as tiny as possible for a day just to go inside you to see what does your heart says. Know why I always hold my cellphone? I've always think about giving you a text but I ain't got balls.

What you speak, it comes back

In life, whatever thing you put it as a negative way of thinking, in the end it comes back to you and you might as well doing so. What you don't speak, don't do or even don't think about it, you will eventually maybe after a period of time you would just do so. I have no doubt experiencing this but not in that bad condition. Some are worse as what I'd found with my own eyes and ears. There are words for it but I just couldn't remember.

One more thing, some people would do anything for money. My term of money is not only refers to cash but all items even issues about it too. Somehow at some points I do agree that, "Money is the root of all evils". I hate it for ruining the life of whatever relationships. It depends what is the ending of the scenario. It's either good or bad but it may get ugly.

I need a clear window

Last Sunday, there was a guy approached me and asked for help when I was on my way back to Wangsa Maju. The conversation started with a simple introduction of his and then he began his story. He told me that he's from Johor and came to KL to have fun with his friends. Best part is, he had been cheated by his friends and the price was losing a cellphone and cash of RM2000. That's fine with me not until he finally proposed his real intention. He wanted me to lend some money to him and asked my bank account number as he said he would pay back. If he asks for a small amount of money, probability that I will give is 0.9. but he messed it up and asked for more. Guess what he asked me to do? He wanted me to go to the atm machine and withdraw cash around RM300 just to pay for his hotel fare and a ticket back to Johor. I guess he thought I'm a super Lulu and I kept saying NO, then he left after a stop from the beginning spot. There he went for another victim right after he got out from the train and he aimed a college student. Wish him bad luck, and hopefully that student is not Lulu :D

Seriously, this guy here is really stupid.

Went for the 1st class as the 3rd semester has been commenced. Nothing special happen although I wished something could happen =). She changed her hair style and we sat quite far apart. Blame me for being late for the class. Honestly, I'm really glad that we are having 4 days classes so that I can see her.


Come and have a last look of my friendster profile. I have just canceled this account. Say so long and goodbye to my account.